[ F i e n d ]

The life of a fiendish schizophrenic.

Saturday, November 02, 2002

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: =9(. )( .)
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: wow, i'm really bored.
I am NOT pangit: hahahaha
I am NOT pangit: it either looks like you're licking a pair of boobs...
I am NOT pangit: or a pair of ass cheeks
I am NOT pangit: with warts

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: me? why does i thave to be me?!
I am NOT pangit: LOL
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: *runs away*
I am NOT pangit: XD!!!!

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: damn you, you forever changed my perspective of "=D" when using this font. [I think he was using the "Times New Roman" font.]
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: alskjflaskjfalskjfdaseofiuasodfi
I am NOT pangit: XD!!!!!!!
I am NOT pangit: it looks like a really thin penis with a big... *cough* yeah.
I am NOT pangit: *dies*

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: oh
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: damnit, now you did it again!
I am NOT pangit: LOL
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: 8=D
I am NOT pangit: XD!!!
I am NOT pangit: how it's thin AND stubby

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: @=D
I am NOT pangit: what in the....
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: i dunno, it looks like a cannon to me.
I am NOT pangit: haha
I am NOT pangit: it looks like that penis has like, one ball
I am NOT pangit: instead of two
I am NOT pangit: and a really long hair

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: D=
I am NOT pangit: *a really long curly hair
I am NOT pangit: oh my gosh
I am NOT pangit: i should stop thinking about that..
I am NOT pangit: lol. ^^;

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: but yes, onlineness is not the best way to meet peoples.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: of course, the way some people go around meeting new people IRL...
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: *shudders* pick up lines...
I am NOT pangit: ay.
I am NOT pangit: i'm not really talking about meeting people online.. period
I am NOT pangit: it was more of a strike against..
I am NOT pangit: "online pimps"

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: ah.
I am NOT pangit: and those who actually look for a relationship
I am NOT pangit: online.

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: people who are all "yo wizzo u pix r h4wt wanNa me3t uP?
I am NOT pangit: -_-;;;;;;;;
I am NOT pangit: dude, my friend has phone sex with mid-twenty year old guys
I am NOT pangit: and she's only 17
I am NOT pangit: her boyfriend lives in san diego
I am NOT pangit: and she met him in a chatroom, after she gave him a picture of some asian model

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: x_x
I am NOT pangit: her bf is like... 27
I am NOT pangit: -_-

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: shiats.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: some people are just idiots, it would seem.
I am NOT pangit: yup.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: horny idiots, at that.
I am NOT pangit: haha
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: what's the deal with phone sex, anyway?
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: o_Oa
I am NOT pangit: well
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: it doesn't seem like very much fun.
I am NOT pangit: i actually heard my friend doing it
I am NOT pangit: i spent the night
I am NOT pangit: she thought i was sleeping
I am NOT pangit: but i obviously wasn't..
I am NOT pangit: ugh.
I am NOT pangit: the horror. -_-

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: it sounds about as fun as playing poker over AIM.
I am NOT pangit: hahahahaha
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: cRaZeEJhaY (6:09:14 PM): im bored lets play poker
Unc1e Phuz (6:09:18 PM): okay
Unc1e Phuz (6:09:20 PM): you deal
cRaZeEJhaY (6:09:58 PM): ur cards K 6 A 9 5
cRaZeEJhaY (6:10:10 PM): mines is 2 2 2 2 A
cRaZeEJhaY (6:10:15 PM): *cough*
Unc1e Phuz (6:10:22 PM): so... what's wild?
cRaZeEJhaY (6:10:28 PM): 2 and A
Unc1e Phuz (6:10:31 PM): okay
Unc1e Phuz (6:10:34 PM): *folds*
I am NOT pangit: x_X;'
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: but really, the idea of phone sex kind of bores me.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: it's just like talking on the phone, but stupider cause you don't actually get anything done.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: just talk about nasty stuff.
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: well
I am NOT pangit: she fingers herself while they're talking
I am NOT pangit: and the guy jacks off
I am NOT pangit: -_-;

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: oh.
I am NOT pangit: its just like
I am NOT pangit: hearing each other masturbate
I am NOT pangit: and get off what the other person says

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: geez, if they're gonna do that the least they could do is get webcams.
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: what if they're both ugly?
I am NOT pangit: that'll turn em off
I am NOT pangit: and it won't work. XD

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: then what are they doing having phone sex?
I am NOT pangit: well...
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: pretending that they are of the hotness and people want them?
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: that's even MORE sad.
I am NOT pangit: hahahahahahahaha
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Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: and if they both aren't hot, obviously neither of them is dating the other for physical qualities, so...
I am NOT pangit: phone sex is just another way of masturbation, obviously
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: x_X
I am NOT pangit: just as long as they can get their pleasure..
I am NOT pangit: they really don't care HOW they get it
I am NOT pangit: just as long as they do

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: yeah, i'd drive 7 hours for that.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: XP
I am NOT pangit: hahahahahahahahahaha

BeAmInRiCaN: hello
I am NOT pangit: Hello.
BeAmInRiCaN: what's your name?
I am NOT pangit: brb
BeAmInRiCaN: k
I am NOT pangit: Back.
I am NOT pangit: Do I know you?

BeAmInRiCaN: no i got your sn from finda pix
I am NOT pangit: Oh, okay.

*BLOCK*

-five minutes later-

HawaiianRican69: yeah ok if you dont want people to instant messege you from findapix then take yor screen name off why don't you just take the stick out

*BLOCK*

I'm sorry, I'm just not in a "social" mood right now. Social, as in, meeting any new people from findapix.com and waste my time talking to them when eventually, I'm going to forget who they are due to their non-importance in the world. Everyone that IMs me from findapix.com is added to my "tool" list. What if the picture that I posted wasn't even me? Idiots and desperatables hit on people online with such a big confidence that the person they are talking to really IS the person that they think they're talking to. People even go to the limits of cyber sex, then phone sex, then a eligit meeting with their "online boyfriend/girlfriend" while, ironically, finding out first hand that the person they were talking to and 'getting to know' really is a fifty-year old, sexually active transexual prostitute. Then what, mister "Internet pimp"?

ENDED AND 0WNED.

XD!!!


NanashiRoff: yo
[Translation: "Good evening, madame. How art thou?"]

I am NOT pangit: yo yo home whiggah yo.
[Translation: "Hello, good sir. *technical difficulties with the interpretation of the word, "home wiggah". Please try again.*]

NanashiRoff: was chillin up in the m to the ilpitas yo
[Translation: "Did you enjoy your spectrum in Milpitas this fine, autumn day of sweet November?]

I am NOT pangit: whut??!??!?!! u fucken serious yo?
[Translation: "Excuse me, sir? Did you just say that you were at Milpitas today?"]

NanashiRoff: nope shias
[Translation: "Pardon the confusion, for that is not what I ment."]

I am NOT pangit: fuck, whiggah. why u gottah git me excited like that? foo.
[Translation: "Oh my. And I was splendidly excited over the thought of you comming to California all the way from Texas, too."]

NanashiRoff: actually negrass that shizzat was a questionnyo
[Translation: "Essentially, ma'am, that was in fact a question."]

I am NOT pangit: oh. har har.
[Translation: "Ay, my apologies."]

I am NOT pangit: nah, foo.
[Translation: "Dissapointingly, young sir, I did not go to the magical place called, "Milpitas" today."]

NanashiRoff: likea the wizzite folk say "What's chilling up in Milpitas?"
[Translation: "As what some gentlemen say, "What are the current happenings of the land of Milpitas?"]

I am NOT pangit: ay.
[Translation: "I undestand."]

I am NOT pangit: shoot, whiggah.. i wain't be at m to the ilpitas today
[Translation: "Sorry, good sir... I happened to not have gone to Milpitas today."]

NanashiRoff: yizzap
[Translation: "Okay."]

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: but yeah...the pictures from joey's trip to vegas are...odd.
I am NOT pangit: hehe
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: i mean, where the hell in the world can you find a banana like this?
I am NOT pangit: that banana looks like a yellow dildo
I am NOT pangit: x_o

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: have to wonder why joey bought it.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: =P
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: XD

OH MY GOSH, MY MOTHER IS SO LAME.

She's always bitching about the most shittiest and un important crap, I swair. Ugh! She blames everything on me... she's always calling me stupid for make the SMALLEST mistakes. Do you know what she did the other day? She fucking went crazy on me just because I forgot to sign and fill out ONE PART of my basketball forms. She was all, "I can't believe I have to fill out our insurance and address information while I was in the car! Are you too stupid to do it, or what?!?!?!" Then, she fucking doesn't stop yelling and yelling and even threw a chair at me. I SERIOUSLY didn't want to say anything, because EVERY SINGLE THING I SAY, she fucking twists it up to something NEGATIVE and goes BALLISTIC.

I HATE HER WITH AN ETERNITY'S WORTH OF EVIL PASSION.

I don't even know why I still sometimes care about her, anyway. Everytime it comes to her hitting me, I just sit there while she rants how, "Oh.. I KNOW you're going to report me to the child abuse program. AND GO AHEAD! I'm the only one you have, and without me, you would be out in the streets." I just fucking sit there. If I say anything, she would hit me some more. When I was younger and I would forget to clean the house before she gets home, she would fucking start throwing the dishes everywhere. If my binders from school were lying around, she would toss it up in the air and all my homework flies out. If I don't take out the garbage or take out the recycle bin in the kitchen, SHE WOULD FUCKING THROW IT INTO OUR LIVING ROOM and leave ME to clean it. She hit me right in front of my friends on my birthday and was saying shit about how I was a bad hostess because one of my friends made me cry. I was crying on my birthday, and my mom hit me for that. When I was in the 3rd grade, if I didn't comb my hair good enough for her standards, or if the shirt I was wairing was dirty, she would fucking yell at me also, saying shit like "What would people say when they see you like that? I know what, they'll blame ME. They always blame the parent everytime a kid looks bad or messes up. Don't make me look bad." See? She's always worried about her self image. She doesn't want people thinking she's a bad person, so she leaves me to pretend as if she's "Miss perfect mother of the year", when truthfully, she is VICE VERSA.

I turned out smart. Good behaving.... good grades... good manners. I've never tried smoking, drinking or anything like that. And you know what? SHE HAD NO INFLUENCE ON ME WHAT SO EVER. If she thinks that, then she is fucking hallucinating. She never went to any of my award shows... or piano concerts... or open houses. Do you know why she never went to any of my school's open house? Because "open houses are always the same day as my bowling league meet up".

............

She would rather not miss a day of her bowling league practice than go to my school for a mere hour--TOPS. She's always making promises to me and getting me to have my hopes up... being all excited about whatever it was she promised... and either cancel her propisition or say that she never even promised ANYTHING to me, therefore it would be my fault if I was hurt or dissapointed. Heh. It's always my fault. During one of her crazy homicidal threats and abundant yellings, i fucking broke out and under the gurgling sounds of the tears that had entered my mouth, I said something like, "Why are you always doing this? Why are you always like this? Why don't you love me?"

Do you know what she said? She said shit about how you become too weak if you show those kinds of emotions too much. That you should never cry, because it shows your vulnirability and weakens your defense. I'm all, "What? What defense... we're family. We're supposed to love each other. What, do you want us all to give you hate and yell at you rather than hug you and love you?"

Bagh. She never showed me much emotional love. And you know what? Now, i usually just have hatred... I mother fucking hate her guts and I yell at her. That's what she wants... she's pushed me to that level of hatred, she really has. I have always been willing to give into her and just love her... she's my mother. But she always pushed me back. I remember making stuff for her when i was back in elementary school... like, making designs on a piece of paper with pretty jewels that spelt out, "I love you" but she would just throw it away. Maybe not to my face, but I would later see it in the garbage can. She throws away the birthday cards, and christmas cards that everyone gives to her. But now.... I twitch everytime she touches me. She could be saying something in the car [not yelling.. just normal talking. wow, how rare is that..] and she would probably laugh here and there... then touches my knee. Her hand is on my knee, and I fucking push it off, CRINGE and say, "Don't touch me" and look away. She sometimes lets it go, when she's on a good mood. Or, she would start yelling. But I wouldn't care. Not anymore, anyways. Everytime she starts yelling, I would just turn off my hearing senses and play a song in my head. Hey, it works... it has kept me sane throughout my mom's annoying and disturbing yelling sprees.

Basically, I just don't give a fuck about her anymore. Or at least, I would like to think so. Why do I wake up crying everytime I have a nightmare of her dying? Well, so far, that has only happen four times. One time, I was dreaming of Jesus in front of a white, bright background. He was comming towards me... passes me... I turn around, and he takes my mom. My mom is covered in blood. Oddly enough, I become really, really sad and I start crying. I just broke down on my knees and fucking started crying. I even woke up crying....

But why is it that I never cry when I dream of myself dying? I wake up emotionless everytime I have a dream of dying. Just... emotionless. Not regretful, nor sad, nor happy, nor relieved.... emotionless.

What does it all mean?

Friday, November 01, 2002

Basketball practice today was okay... I love doing drills. Although... this really stupid freshman that can't even dribble the ball or do a lay-up almost gave me a black eye. I was getting a rebound, she was in the sidelines. I GUESS SHE WAS A SLOW THINKER because even though I was heading towards the ball, she fucking hit the ball with her hand and the ball hit my eye. I was like, "FUCK!" and grabbed the ball from her when she picked it up. I'm not doing so well today.... even my shots proved it. -_-

Today is senior ditch day and my classes couldn't have been easier. Right now in Computer Graphics, my teacher is playing the movie, "Shrek" on the computer projector. It's pretty cool, and the movie is all clear.. and stuff. Yeah, I'm going to get back to eating my bagel now.

Thursday, October 31, 2002

Today.

Wow, I met some pretty wierd people today. I was walking out of my art class [my last period class], and upon five feet from my classroom, this old man [around the age of 50-60] came up to me, while scratching his ass and asked, "Where is math?"

-_-

Me: "Uhh... what kind?"
Him: "Sophmore level."

-_-

Me: "Hrm."
Him: "Wait, I think it's called Geometry."

-_-

Me: "Oh, it's over there... portable 6."
Him: *still scratching his butt* "Yeah I knew that."

-_-!!!!!!!!!

And then, about a half an hour ago... I was still walking home, blah blah blah.. I get to the 7-11 in which is within minutes from my house, and this hippy-like wierd white dude that was wairing an anime shirt came up to me and said, "Hey! Wanna get married?!?!"

Me: *RUNS AWAY*

Wednesday, October 30, 2002

I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH NAMIE AMURO.

I am NOT pangit: omg, namie amuro is so pretty....
I am NOT pangit: http://members.aol.com/binaliw/ss.jpg
I am NOT pangit: i have like 29743274234 winamp skins of her

jreamxx: *anticipates*
jreamxx: is she a jap singer?
I am NOT pangit: yup
I am NOT pangit: thus her name ^^;

jreamxx: yes yes
I am NOT pangit: i like how you pronounce her name... "Na-mee-eh"
jreamxx: hehe
I am NOT pangit: wheeee

jreamxx: haha
jreamxx: its taking awhile to load
I am NOT pangit: it's my "current screen shot" thingf
I am NOT pangit: **thing

jreamxx: ic
jreamxx: no wonder why
jreamxx: 1024x768
I am NOT pangit: ^^;
I am NOT pangit: damn, i sent my friend 11 mp3 songs today

jreamxx: so he can burn it?
I am NOT pangit: it takes me 30-20 minutes to send one song
I am NOT pangit: no... just for him to listen to them

jreamxx: thats an accomplishment, i can never do that lol
I am NOT pangit: lol
jreamxx: ic
jreamxx: yes shes nice
jreamxx: hehe
I am NOT pangit: yup yup
I am NOT pangit: ^.^

jreamxx: and you did this while i was like idle and away
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: i did this right before i came back
I am NOT pangit: see? girls like those almost make me want to become a lesbian
I am NOT pangit: *_*

jreamxx: lol i see everything baby!
jreamxx: :-X
jreamxx: hehe
I am NOT pangit: hahaha
I am NOT pangit: serious
I am NOT pangit: XD
I am NOT pangit: she is like.. =O~


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I am NOT pangit: omg...
I am NOT pangit: http://www.screensaverjapan.com/musicart/amuro/amuro1.jpg
I am NOT pangit: *drool*
I am NOT pangit: hahahaha

jreamxx: please dont make me think twice about you again
jreamxx: lol
jreamxx: hahaha
I am NOT pangit: XD
jreamxx: i should be the one thats drooling
I am NOT pangit: pfffft. i can drool too
jreamxx: those legs...... *AHEMM...* tugs my shirt
jreamxx: lol
I am NOT pangit: you can drool at shinhwa
I am NOT pangit: LOL


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One more:

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Current screen shot

[All past screen shots except for the recent one will be deleted ^^;]

asdf

Today

Went to school.... had a terrible irritated eye the entire day, I was afraid that I might be developing some cataract eye disease or something. Blugh.. I really wanted to go home after break and skip my Computer Graphics class, but after calling my mom and telling her about my eye problem, she said she won't pick me up until I go to the office and ask them to inspect my eye or something and see if there really was a problem. I was like, "Damnit! Whatever, I'll stay."

My mom picks me up a few minutes into lunch [right after my Computer Graphics class] and I ask her for ten dollars so I could go get something to eat. She drops me off at the Erik's Deli 3 minutes [walking] from my house [it's right next to 7-11... where I usually wait for my ride]. I get the "Half sandwitch and soup combo"--the sandwitch being, just plain ham and cheese with beef stew *drool*--washed down with an orange Minute Made soda. I sit down to eat, until I feel something vibrating in my ass. Oh! It's my phone. I check it... and it was a text message from Liang saying that he was out of school. I call him, talk for like 2 minutes. I was really hungry, and I wasn't skilled enough to hold a cell phone and eat a sandwitch at the same time. *is retarded*

I ate my stew and half of my "half sandwitch" and I'm full. La di da da... I walk home, turn on my computer, and upload a bunch of crap into my ftp for school. *yawn* Isn't my life exciting? Right now, I have my brother's Playstation waiting for me in his room with my SUIKODEN 3 sitting there.... tempting me to play it. I'm only in chapter 2.. but damn. I fucking love this game. My brother and I have always been big fans of the Suikoden series. As in matter of fact, I think Suikoden 1 was one of the first RPGs that I have ever played! =)

I just had a big bowl of ramen and I'm still hungry... dude, it's like, the more I eat, the more I get hungry. BUT if I only eat a little, then I get full. Fast.

Wierd is me.

Anywho... Dyllan is burning me a data CD with the songs that he has in his hard drive, and since my burner is shit, I'm just sending him a bunch of songs that I have in my hard drive. It takes like twenty/thirty minutes to send each song, so poo.

Screen Shot of the moment

My desktop sucks. My computer as a whole sucks. -.-

Tuesday, October 29, 2002

D t a g o n: AOL is really lame, you can't even use dial-up networking to get in and bypass all that other shit
D t a g o n: gotta login and all that crap
D t a g o n: *shudders*
I am NOT pangit: yup.
I am NOT pangit: i've been on AOL ever since my family has had a computer
I am NOT pangit: =\

D t a g o n: that's harsh
I am NOT pangit: my mom claims to have called the cable people
I am NOT pangit: but i'm pretty sure she was lying
I am NOT pangit: since she said that 6 months ago
I am NOT pangit: she kept saying, "oh, they'll be here next friday"
I am NOT pangit: for 6 months.
I am NOT pangit: -_-

D t a g o n: lol
D t a g o n: that's horrible!!!
I am NOT pangit: yup.
D t a g o n: "oh they're coming tomorrow dear...... "
I am NOT pangit: haha
D t a g o n: I've had DSL for.... almost 4 years
I am NOT pangit: damn. you suck.
D t a g o n: I believe I was the first person in SV to get it... waha
I am NOT pangit: *hits you with a twinkie*
I am NOT pangit: T_T

D t a g o n: cream filled?
I am NOT pangit: yes. a SPECIAL kind of cream.
I am NOT pangit: :D

D t a g o n: OMG
I am NOT pangit: hahahahahahaha
D t a g o n: *doesn't know what that means and runs*
I am NOT pangit: *white cream splurges after you and lands on your butt*
I am NOT pangit: XD

D t a g o n: that's really disgusting
D t a g o n: lol
I am NOT pangit: lol
D t a g o n: "splurges"

^dude from my Computer Graphics class

I am NOT pangit: hey, would you drive 7 hours just so you could "catch a glimpse" of this girl in person?
D t a g o n: lol
I am NOT pangit: http://members.aol.com/Strife553/Images//desktop.jpg
D t a g o n: for sure
D t a g o n: lol wait
I am NOT pangit: o_O.
I am NOT pangit: hahahahahahahaha

D t a g o n: I didn't say FOR SURE TO THAT QUESTION
I am NOT pangit: LOL
I am NOT pangit: suuuure you didn't
I am NOT pangit: XD

D t a g o n: k uhm
D t a g o n: I guess if she was mad cool
I am NOT pangit: no.
D t a g o n: but based on physical appearence?
I am NOT pangit: hold on
D t a g o n: not especially
I am NOT pangit: read my current blog
D t a g o n: looks like she fell from the ugly tree
I am NOT pangit: LOL
D t a g o n: and hit every branch

D t a g o n: hahaha
D t a g o n: 7hrs for a glimpse?
D t a g o n: what knida crack was he smokin

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Well, I'm just being little miss shit talker today, aren't I? XD

We're talking about this girl. You know, Grace aka... whatever? That annoying little whore from the CVGL tournament that kept screaming and SCREAMING at the top of her lungs and almost made me want to fucking smack her across her beaver-like face to the moon? Yeah, this is her. The same whore that Corey "fell for" or whatever...?.....and the same person that Jaimee's friend, Michael also fell for and "supposedly" got naked with at her house? I dont' know, I'm just echoing what people told me. Haha. Chismis at it's best.

[posted by Grace from her Live Journal] "He's one of those guys who, if you could "hook" well enough to keep yours long enough, would be well worth it in the end. Once he grows taller and older, gawd. He's gunna be so cute. I would never do anything as stupid as that, but I'll keep him around for a bit. He's incredibly intelligent and down to earth anyways. He doesn't act much upon his less civilized male side. And he's younger than me. Where do these cute, smart boys hide? Apparently at home since they dun really get along with regular, moron boys."
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: because i am short and young she throws me away. =D
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: shallooooooooooooooooowness. =D
I am NOT pangit: wow.
I am NOT pangit: geezus christ...
I am NOT pangit: i don't know if i read that right.. but was she talking about you getting taller and having a longer penis or something?? o_O;;;;;;;;;;

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: nah.
I am NOT pangit: oh. haha
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: just taller so i'd be taller than her.
I am NOT pangit: ohhh i see
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: it's one of her rules.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: sad, huh?
I am NOT pangit: "hook" well enough to keep yours long enough
I am NOT pangit: errr
I am NOT pangit: what was she talking about?

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: yeah.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: no clue.
I am NOT pangit: @_@;
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: maybe just keep around as a couple sorta thing.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: i don't see how anyone would wanna keep me around, but...
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: *shrug*
I am NOT pangit: hrm
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: sadness.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: " asked Michael, when I was hanging out with him, why I wasn't his girlfriend. He said it was because I lived far away and he can't stand to drive two hours so much. His car would die.

There once was a time when guys would drive seven hours to just get a glimse of me. What has happened?

I know what has happened. He's full of shit. Fucking asshole is full of shit. Afterall, 14y.old girls are disposable. I know that all too well.

I'm split between wanting him and forcing myself to not want him. I want him as a boyfriend but I've lost my charm. No one goes out with me anymore. No one REALLY wants me. No, like, wants me enough to be my boyfriend, do anything for me, etc. No one really cares enough to be my boyfriend."

I am NOT pangit: hahahahahahahahahaaahahhahahahahaahah
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: sooooo self centered.
I am NOT pangit: OH MY FUCKING GOD.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: and full of shit.
I am NOT pangit: <---is cracking up
I am NOT pangit: XD
I am NOT pangit: There once was a time when guys would drive seven hours to just get a glimse of me. What has happened?
I am NOT pangit: i wonder who was stupid enough to do THAT

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: socal guys.
I am NOT pangit: i would drive 7 hours just to get away from her
I am NOT pangit: -_-

Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: i'm guessing
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: that's the only place i know that's 7 hours from there.
I am NOT pangit: yeah...
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: reno's no more than 5 or 6.
I am NOT pangit: well, she could be lying.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: she does it with pedos, too
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: that michael guy is 20.
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: x_x

What the hell?? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Miyu ATTEMPTED to rant in Japanese and Tagalog. He can't even spell in neither. What a fool.

Ang pissed off ako.
Ang talagang talagang maximum pissed off.
So uh yeah, pasentia ca muna.


With correct spelling and proper Tagalog

Ng galit na ako.
Talagang talagang galit na ako.
So ay, pasencia kayo muna.

Translation

I am pissed off.
Really, really, maximum pissed off.
So uh yeah, have some patience.

His attempt to rant and spell in Japanese... an attempt failed

Shikaketekinowa, anata ga saki yo. Mikuiru! Hanashi ni naranai na, ne? Korede wakataro, bou jya...


Kono te do da na, ne? Muda ne agaki da....Tanoshi ne? Kutabare... ja!


You know what? Me, Ray and this partially Japanese guy from my school CAN'T EVEN TRANSLATE THAT SHIT.

HUSKY is SEXY: omg he doesnt know how to spell some of this stuff
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: what does it say?

HUSKY is SEXY: im ttying to figure it out
I am NOT pangit: kk
I am NOT pangit: hahahaha.. he can't spell in tagalog, either. XD

HUSKY is SEXY: XD
HUSKY is SEXY: fuck i cant translate...and BJ and Gary (the only other people that i know who knows jap) isnt anywhere to be contacted
I am NOT pangit: darn
I am NOT pangit: i'll ask my friend... he's japanese
I am NOT pangit: or says he is o_O

HUSKY is SEXY: ok lol
I am NOT pangit: he's actually filipino/white [i think]
HUSKY is SEXY: hey that can pass for one
I am NOT pangit: hehe
HUSKY is SEXY: OMG HE DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO SPELL OR CONSTRUCT SENTENCES
HUSKY is SEXY: its so frustrating
I am NOT pangit: LOL
HUSKY is SEXY: like i cant understand most of it, but from what i know, most of that shit aint even in the correct structure
I am NOT pangit: Gojita3001: First part
Gojita3001: I was scholded (sp?)
Gojita3001: scolded

HUSKY is SEXY: i dont see any "i"
HUSKY is SEXY: anata means "you"
I am NOT pangit: Gojita3001: anata ga saki yo
Gojita3001: You are a sharp point indeed.
Gojita3001: (O_o)

I am NOT pangit: LOL

HUSKY is SEXY: o ok
HUSKY is SEXY: wait no
HUSKY is SEXY: wait shit...that means david used the wrong words
I am NOT pangit: hahahahahahahahahaha
HUSKY is SEXY: if that is indeed the translation
HUSKY is SEXY: it should be "anata wa saki desu yo"
I am NOT pangit: hrm
HUSKY is SEXY: i think
HUSKY is SEXY: lol

I ask another guy to translate.. he speaks Japanese too.

I am NOT pangit: hrm.. can you translate this for me? it has hella spelling errors and bad sentence construction
I am NOT pangit: me and two other people are trying to do it
I am NOT pangit: Shikaketekinowa, anata ga saki yo. Mikuiru! Hanashi ni naranai na, ne? Korede wakataro, bou jya...


Kono te do da na, ne? Muda ne agaki da....Tanoshi ne? Kutabare... ja!

I am NOT pangit: it's some guy attempting to rant in Japanese
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: *blink*
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: holy shit.
I am NOT pangit: lol
Mi5h7aReKeNd3r: tanoshii's spelled wrong, and everything else is barely readable except for "ja"

And then... some more help from Dyllan

Gojita3001: Erm,
Gojita3001: First part
Gojita3001: I was scholded (sp?)
Gojita3001: scolded
I am NOT pangit: mmk ay
Gojita3001: yeah
Gojita3001: anata ga saki yo
Gojita3001: You are a sharp point indeed.
Gojita3001: (O_o)
I am NOT pangit: LOL
Gojita3001: Mikuiru! Hanashi ni naranai na, ne?
Gojita3001: Blah
Gojita3001: 1 sec
I am NOT pangit: kay
I am NOT pangit: thanks again :D

Gojita3001: Mikuiru!
-Scorn!
Hanashi ni naranai na, ne?
I talked ______, ne?
Gojita3001: Blah
Gojita3001: Font change
I am NOT pangit: gosh... he has a lot of spelling errors and his sentence structure is bad, huh?
I am NOT pangit: my friend was trying to translate it too

Gojita3001: yep
I am NOT pangit: haha
Gojita3001: it's taking me a while to weed through it
I am NOT pangit: how long have you been speaking japanese?
Gojita3001: Oh, sorries! Translating...
I am NOT pangit: no prob ^^;
Gojita3001: erm, 2-3 years
Gojita3001: Kono te do da na, ne?
This (then he say's somthing about the income from taxes?), ne?
Muda ne agaki da....Tanoshi ne?
Useless struggle... Enjoy, ne?
Kutabare... ja!
Die.... See ya!
Gojita3001: Very weird...
I am NOT pangit: LOL
Gojita3001: I think he had an argument...
I am NOT pangit: thanks so much dyllan
I am NOT pangit: :D

Gojita3001: It was a useless struggle, but he enjoyed it
Gojita3001: hmm...
I am NOT pangit: hahahahaha
I am NOT pangit: he learned all of his japanese from watching anime [or at least i heard]

Gojita3001: Then he uses 'die' like, well, in emotion context.
Gojita3001: Yeah
Gojita3001: context used in anime
Gojita3001: I was about to say something like that
I am NOT pangit: hehe
Gojita3001: But that whole part about "income tax" was really random

Meanwhile.. with Ray

HUSKY is SEXY: u know why i think hes mad?
I am NOT pangit: why?
HUSKY is SEXY: i think u broke his heart by not talking to him *awwwwwww*
I am NOT pangit: ¬.ñ
I am NOT pangit: ahhh
I am NOT pangit: ¬.¬
I am NOT pangit: ^^;

HUSKY is SEXY: lol
HUSKY is SEXY: see...didnt i say how wierd he gets if u dont talk to him?
HUSKY is SEXY: remember i blocked him off cuz he was bothering me cuz i wasnt talking to him?
I am NOT pangit: yup...
I am NOT pangit: damn
I am NOT pangit: he IMed me in different SNs, too
I am NOT pangit: when i blocked him

HUSKY is SEXY: hahahaha
HUSKY is SEXY: u blocked him too?
HUSKY is SEXY: LOL
HUSKY is SEXY: I LOVE U MIL!!!!!
HUSKY is SEXY: xd
HUSKY is SEXY: XD
HUSKY is SEXY: hi 5!
I am NOT pangit: oh my gosh.
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: *high five*

HUSKY is SEXY: hey wow bj has a different translation
HUSKY is SEXY: BruceLeroy707: Shikakete kinowa, anata ga saki yo. Mikuiru! Hanashi ni naranai na, ne? Korede wakataro, bou jya...

Yesterday i saw, your future. Mikuiru! He hasn't become a rumor, has he? I understand that, (boujya makes no sense)

I am NOT pangit: LOL
HUSKY is SEXY: omg @_@
I am NOT pangit: hahahaha
I am NOT pangit: this whole thing is soooo going on my blogger
I am NOT pangit: XD

HUSKY is SEXY: HAHAHAHAHAHA
me too
HUSKY is SEXY: XS
HUSKY is SEXY: XD
I am NOT pangit: hahaha
HUSKY is SEXY: shit i cant type today
I am NOT pangit: post it on scandia wars!!!
I am NOT pangit: hehe

HUSKY is SEXY: yeah hahaha
HUSKY is SEXY: legend of illiterate monkey
I am NOT pangit: LOL
HUSKY is SEXY: BruceLeroy707: Kono te do da na, ne? Muda ne agaki da....Tanoshi ne? Kutabare... ja!

this hand is okay, right? The struggle is pointless.....fun isn't it? Just die....see ya!

I am NOT pangit: hahahaha
HUSKY is SEXY: BruceLeroy707: 0.0 don't ask me, im just trying to translate. maybe it would make more sense if i understood the context
HUSKY is SEXY: damn this is fun
HUSKY is SEXY: lol


WOW, MIYU IS A MOTHER FUCKING MORON.


I feel: Good. Whee.... Basketball is getting be back in shape. :D
Listening to: "Kimi No Mado Kara" by Keiichi Sogabe


Today:

Went to school, skipped B-8 [Art] and went home instead to take a shower [dude... i felt hella icky. I didn't take a shower this morning OR last night. ewwwww!!], I went online for about 20 minutes and procrastinated on leaving for basketball practice... probably only had 10 minutes to get to school for practice and it usually takes me a half an hour to walk home, so i had to RUN my ass to school. I get there, probably 3 minutes before the last bell rings and i see all of my team mates leave there class. I wait for them to get ready... then BASKETBALL TIME, BABY! Hehe. I did pretty well shooting-wise today. Almost swished all of my shots and was the last 2 for our game of knock out. I got beat by Juliana, though.... but she was the freaking team captain of our 8th grade basketball team so yeah. o_O

Practice ended around 5... I jog home because it was already hella late and i was really cold. [high winds in Santa Cruz + shorts and a tank top = BRRRRRR!!!!!!]. I get home, take out my carrot juice from the freezer and head straight to the computer. Wheeee, and here I am. :D

Monday, October 28, 2002

Feeling: Sick from eating too much home-made rice crispies treats *hurls*
I am listening to: "Le Tango Corse +" By Fernandel
[*heavenly sigh* This is what my grandfather used to listen to... I miss him.]


Since my blog from Sunday night was deleted by STUPID BLOGGER, I have decided to re think all of the fun, FUN things that happened that day and re-blog it! :D

Saturday, October 26, 2002

I cannot compensate how much I love my team of A.S.S. SO much. I mean, wow... they are such a fun bunch, I seriously have never had a group of friends so cool, hip, and FUN! ^.^ Of course I'm not lying... or exaggerating... why else would I go to MGL every Saturday for the past four weeks? Or why else would I take so many consecutive chances and even go all the way to Vallejo? I do it because I love them. I love being with them, being friends with them and everything about them. :D

Saturday~Isaac calls me a little before 10, telling me that he was going to be in Santa Cruz in a half an hour. I was still in my PJs at the time, so I took a very QUICK shower, dried my hair thoroughly, got ready, and started cleaning the house. Isaac calls, says he's at 7-11, and I hadn't even vacuumed yet. So yeah... I was like, 7 minutes late because I had to vacuum our living room real fast. About 4 minutes into the road, Ray calls my cellphone, asking if I can get him and some other people double tokens when I get MGL because they were most likely going to get there late. In the car, Isaac/David/Jiggaro and I were listening to the CD that I brought, by some black guy in the Philippines that raps in Tagalog. He's pretty tight. I also brought my DJ D.O.C. CD along with me, also. :P

I get there... I get two seperate bags of 5 $ double tokens for Ray and his "mystery person", get my own double tokens and head straight to GUITAR FREAKS. [Yeah, baby! XD] After a while, Kristy, Joey, lil' Ray and Liang get there. We say our hellos, blah blah. Then, Josh gets there also, "hi josh!". The last batch to arrive is Ray and BJ!!!!! w00t! They also brought Brad along with them, also. Hehe. I had a small hint that BJ was Ray's mystery guest, but then I thought he had a car... so why would Ray give him a ride? Err.... something. Yeah, anywho. [lol]

[Gosh, it's hard remembering what happened two days ago. *dies*] We kind of hang out for a while, until we decided to leave MGL and go somewhere. It only took 35 minutes of just standing there to decide where we were going, and that was after me convincing Isaac to come with us so we would have enough room for everyone. He decides to lead us to some place in Mountain View, right where Jennie used to live. It was pretty cool watching her look around downtown with awe... she prolly hadn't been there in a while. We took like AN HOUR deciding where to eat. We were just kind of walking around downtown... stopped by some music store and watched Liang play. No one wanted to watch me play, though... only BJ and Brian. *cry* lol, I suck anyway. :P The first batch of people that was in downtown was me, Isaac, Brian, Liang, Ray, BJ, Brad, lil Ray, Jennie... and I think that was all that we could fit in two cars. Josh and Joey left earlier, to go somewhere random... we kind of left Kristy and Eugene at MGL, but Josh and Joey went back to pick them up anyway. In Josh's and Joey's car, we have: Sam, her friend [I think her name was Laura], Josh and Joey themselves and Nado! Wheee.. Nado wanted to suprize Erin and I think she got mad because she went home from MGL earlier or something. So yeah, I call Erin on my phone, Nado talks to her for about 10 minutes, blah blah blah... we go to some place that's a little like Tapioca Express, but A GABAZILLION times better. After that, Isaac led us to TK Noodle and I had some noodle combonation with chicken and vegetables. Afterwards, we go to Gamestop and get free DVDs. hehe.

We go back to MGL, and Ray and I get back to working on our routine. We probably only have like a quarter of our routine finished. Gosh, working on a couples routine is a lot harder than I thought, but it is waaaaaaay funner than what I ever imagined. Maybe it was because I was working on it with a really fun person. ^o^. Oh! And freaking Raytard scared me half to death... We were outside and I was standing on a concrete bench.. freaking Ray picked me up by my legs. I thought I was going to die!! XD I even saw a bright light [or was that the golfland night lights? ^^;;]. I hate it when people pick me up. I always think they're going to drop me or something. -_-. So anywho... more workage on the routine-age and more funnage to the fullest-age. Hee hee. Oh! And Erin gets back to MGL while I was playing Guitar Freaks... hella scared me, too. And I think I failed my game when she went up to me. *cry* It was GREAT seeing her, though!!!!! She's one of my best out of Santa Cruz girlfriends, ever. lol. But Yeah... Jennie is my real girlfriend. She and I are lovers, you know. ^_~.

Ho hum.... Erin and I play a game of DDR, more shitty freestyle from me and shaking of the arse. Haha. Oh, and that reminds me... that pic that I posted earlier was taken last Saturday. Some guy from SF took it for me and Erin. THANK YOU, PERSON I DON'T KNOW. ^.^ Oh yeah! That also reminds me... I finally got to meet BENJIIIIII!!!! lol. Benji is the coolest, to the fullest. I've been talking to him online for some time now, and that was the first time I met him. He's probably one of the very little raver friends that I have. :x. Oh!!! I also got to meet my LONG LOST DAUGHTER last Saturday, too!! Sweet ole' Holly. Haha... I love that girl. And I can't believe she goes around calling ME pretty? Shooooot... she's the pretty one, hun. She's tall, blonde and gorgeus. Haha, I also told her that if I were a lesbian, I would seriously ask her out. =)

While I was walking away from the DDR machine, I saw Romy standing in front of the Initial D game [pffft... as usual. lol] and I gave him a hug. He gave me another hug back, and tried picking me up. I was like... "Oh, hell no" and backed away. lol. I hugged him again, and he freaking picked me up!! Grrrrr. I was hella trying to get my butt on the ground.. so I was kind of hanging from his arms. LOL. I can't even imagine how wierd that would have looked. Wendell passes by, and tells Romy "Hey, Don't break Mil pliiis". lol. I then fell on the floor, and assumed my well-known "fetal position"... then my tokens all fell on the floor. *cry* Romy picked up about half of them, and ran off into the bathroom. I was like... "Shoot, if you think you can hide in there, then you are sooooo foolish. *busts in* HAR HAR!" But----he pushes me out and I cried. He eventually came out of the bathroom and gave me back my tokens, though. haha. Romy, oh Romy.. what a dork.

*trying to remember what else happened*

Oh! Riding in the back seat of Isaac's car with Brad was pleasant. lol. He smells hella good! =O~~

Josh: [if you're reading this I'm getting some more copies of my studio pics, sorry I ran out. I promise to give one to you, though!!!! ^.^

Kristy: You GOTTA make brownies for me one day. Only me!! XD. haha. Nah... I probably won't eat them all. I would hate to go back to my old, TABA self. hahaha.

Liang: Pffftt... blaming me for that hole on my panda when in reality, that was from you and I just didn't want to make a big deal about it. Silly little Liangy Liang. XP

RAY!!!: I don't care if our routine is going to rock, or suck... it was just hella cool making one with you. lol. I sound like we were working on a baby or something... "I don't care if our kid is ugly or beautiful, just as long as I will have one with you" o_O;;;;;; [I don't know wheeeere that came from. hahahahahaha]

BJ!!!!: Oh my Gosh, you are my GOD!! You are such a cool kick-ass person. You are very supportive.. you remind me of when I first met Mel B. It was back in the Tournarochi days. I rememeber when he was hella giving me support and saying how I should enter freestyle [I actually had a "routine" to Trip Machine back then... of course, it only had like... a couple of spins and a knee drop here and there. XD]. But yeah, you are soooooo freaking cool. And like Mel B, you have NO enemies or haters whatsoever, because you're too cool to. :D

Erin: Sx5!!!! Hahahahaha, the new division of A.S.S. XD I fucking love you, yo. You are one of my best friends out of Santa Cruz... or maybe in AND out of Santa Cruz as well? I derno, all I know is that I love you. Hehe.

Brian: You have one of the most peverted minds on Earth, even more peverted than me. I think. Hehe.... that's what I love about you though. You're cool, dude! *thumbs up*

Jeff: Ahh, as sweaty as ever. I seriously need to pounce on you one of these days and give you a TICKLE OF THE TABANESS attack. Haha.

Joey: I don't know you that well, but you seem hella cool. :-D It would be nice to actually have a real conversation with you one day though. lol. I just realized I have never really anything to you online or in person... ever. *dies*

Lil' Ray: Ditto. I need to talk to you more often, as well. ^^;

ISAAC!!!: I love you so much, David! Thank you looooots for driving me. You're still going to Shaft, right? :D

Jennie: I seriously wouldn't be suprized if my FRISKY female hormones kicked up and I just started humping you out of the blue. Hehe. LOVE YA, HUN! XD

In conclusion, the only thing that I have for you guys is love. Love love love love love. =) I just... I'm sorry if I show you guys TOO much love, it's just that I crave so much love because I missed out a lot in that area from my childhood... my mom was always hesitant to hug or kiss me. I just remember going to the park one day, watching these girls playing with their moms and hugging and kissing them. My went up to my mom, but she was kind of iffy about me kissing her on the cheek. I mean, wtf? I'm her daughter, right? I was like, only 4... my grandfather just died the CHRISTMAS EVE before [the only adult that gave me as much love as i needed and craved]... was she worried that I had rabies or something? What the hell?

Oh well, blah. Ironically, my mom just got home.. I need to do the dishes now. I'll blog more if I remember something that happened but forgot to blog it on this log.

Laytah! ^o^

This is why I shouldn't be allowed to cook.














Have you guessed what the goey stuff is yet? =X

*ahem* They HAPPEN to be rice crispies treats. Just a little... dimented. I couldn't find our right-sized pan for it, and I didn't even prepare before I started melting the margarine and the marshmellows... as the marshmellows were melting, I was hella panicking because it was started to boil and I forgot to get the pan out, so I grabbed the nearest big bowl that I can find and dumped the melted marshmellows there. I was like, "oh shit." because my spoon fell in the goeyness.. I take it out, pur the rice crispies on, and mix it all together.

-_-

I feel sorry for whoever will end up marrying me. AND MY KIDS ARE GOING TO STARVE TO DEATH. *cries*

Sunday, October 27, 2002

OHHH, SO NOW BLOGGER WORKS.

SCREW YOU, BLOGGER!!! *gives middle finger*

I posted an hours worth of blogging earlier this morning, and the little shit deleted my entire post when I pressed, "Post and Publish" GRRRR!!

I'll blog about yesterday tommorow during class, though.